Why?
Why didn’t I get it? Why didn’t I understand?
You made everything so obvious! For months, no, years, you planned!
I wanted that day to be just for you
I made notes on everything you said you like to do
Spa, movie, dinner, paid.
Hours on the phone for each reservation made
Out of three hours not one which you stayed
It’s time I come out, I guess I was played!
I tried so hard to make things work yet for some reason you didn’t give me time and now that I look back at it all everything is starting to fall in line
6 years it’s been the first ones were great
Every Friday we’d meet, go for a coffee, a “date”
The laughter the smiles and even some tears
We had each other to calm all the fears
It was the ideal, it was so unique
Refreshing, calming…
But then came a leak
Messages and calls, all were ignored
All of our dates you seemed to get bored
I saw you less and I couldn’t process
All of your actions I just couldn’t guess
When I finally spoke up asked what I did wrong
You shouted at me as if I knew all along
I tried to talk and I tried to make sense
But you gave me so little as if I were dense
What happened to you?
What did I do?
The final year went by so quick
I didn’t keep well; my mind was sick
I had given up and blamed myself
All of the bottles fell off of the shelf
You had taken your stuff, packed up and gone
And all of my stuff was burned on the lawn
It was only when I was wishing for death
Did realization come in as sharp breath.
Why?
When I look back I see only my side
I was stupid, ignorant, and so full of pride
I had hurt you, ignored you, took you as claim
I played you just like a game
Everything but that day was only for me
I guess karma does play part in destiny
I swore against both and look what has pass
It’s not a shock that they both bit my ass.
